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Blessed me.. blessed me FATHER in the name of Jesus Christ.. hmm.. akhir2 ini.. masalah nggak pernah berhenti datang.. one by one.. one after another.. rasane kalimat yg ga pernah berhenti keluar cuma "God, i’m tired.. i’m soo much tired".. don’t have any more strength even to imagine what will happen tomorrow.. ga isa bayangin harus melalui besok ini pake kekuatan apa lg.. I have nothing left.. sounds dramatic huh?? Hahaha.. but it truly is.. ada satu titik dalam hidup tiap orang, dimana rasane wes ga mampu lagi..

In fact, my problems are not that big actually..  haha.. I mean, compared to people who lost someone they loved by accident.. or someone who lost their job, and don’t know what to eat tomorrow.. I saw my problems are small enough.. laughable enough.. haha.. but it tough.. tough enough for me.. God have brought me to the darkest time in my life.. where there is no light.. no light that i could depend on.. no light to see which way to go.. which side i’m in.. just alone.. just me.. God have brought me to my "cave". So what could I do? Just standing alone with no one to count on.. Only one.. only one to depend on.. my GOD.. surrender my all to GOD.. Faith works in the darkest time of my life.. where there’s nothing and no one to depend on.. no friends.. no family.. no relatives.. no one.. just me and my GOD..

Learnt something that called FAITH.. faith means surrender your all.. all ur life, all ur future, all ur problems, all people near u, all things, every single thing to ur GOD.. FAITH.. easy to say but really hard to do.. aku sampe pd satu titik di hidupku dimana rasane kekuatanku, usahaku, pikiranku, n segala ‘ku’ itu sudah ga berguna lg.. ga ada artinya.. all my senses just suddenly couldn’t be able to use.. and I knew that I forgot 1 thing.. I forgot that my life is in GOD’s hand.. I forgot that everything happened in my life is by the permission of my GOD..

Hm.. 22 years I lived my life with all the problems, all the obstacles I got to through, all the tough people I got to face. Just realized now, that GOD have prepared me carefully to face any kind of troubles in the future, which seems much tougher than I could ever imagine.. pada kenyataannya, tantangan atau masalah ga pernah bertambah mudah.. and I look at my self now, much wiser since I got through everything that happened.. GOD have prepared me to be HIS conqueror..

Haha.. the conclusion is.. emil naik kelas lagi ^^ hehe.. in the middle of it sih benere.. bln lulus jg.. masih berjuang.. tp aku percaya kalo aku pasti lulus.. hehe.. and then I’ll be ready to move forward.. face anything forward.. hmm..